Brrrr..I'm cold. And it is yucky and rainy out. Waaaah!

Nothing exciting to report.

I went to A.P.E today - the Alternative Press Expo here in San Francisco (http://www.comic-con.org/ape/index.shtml). It was pretty cool. LOTS to see. But it is kinda weird to be looking at the comics with the artists sitting right there. I feel like I'm personally rejecting them everytime i don't stop to look at their book or their art. I feel terrible. I guess I have to get used to it. It is only the second time I've ever gone to something like that.

I didn't buy much...just one print from an artist I really like....now I just need to get it framed and I think I may actually buy more of his stuff since I really like it.

This is what I bought:


It is called on my own and from a series called The Phobiaz. This one represents a fear of the dark.

Here is a link to the rest of them...feel free to buy them for me and send them along...I think I'd like to have the whole series - 9 of them - $40 each....I'm going to be so poor.
http://thephobiaz.com/

And saw some new stuff that i have now added to my Amazon wishlist...fun!

Now I'm doing laundry..woohoooo....load one is in the dryer and load two is in the washer - towels, sheets, socks, and undies. What a WILD Saturday night!

Just wait until I make myself some pasta for dinner. OMG I'M CRAY-ZAY! Wait..it gets crazier...I'm gonna have me some...wait for it..wait for it..COKE ZERO!

Why am I finding this so amusing?

Been thinking lots about last night. About everything. I think I'm over feeling bad. Now I'm just mad. I deserve way better than what I'm getting. As for some reason..despite that..I'm still sitting here feeling bad. WHY AM I FEELING BAD? Granted..I shouldn't have done what I did yesterday. The attempt at contact was wrong. But my god...I think I've been tough as nails throughout all this and I'm going to allow myself a night of weakness. And realize that one day I hope to find someone to be with who never makes me doubt myself or shuts me out. Who puts me first the same way I put them first. I'll let myself be sad. I'll met myself mourn. But no more feeling bad. No more feeling guilty. I'm just going to let go.

I saw this line today and I love it:
"To be creatures who love, we must be creatures who despair" - Andrew Solomon