Ramble Ramble Rumble Rumble
Ok...it is midnight and I'm awake. I've been having SUCH a hard time falling asleep at night. I should just take the melatonin. I don't know why I haven't. I think I feel like i don't want to take it too late and feel groggy in the morning..although it isn't a sleeping pill so I shouldn't have that effect.
Zzzzzzzzz
So N. has introduced me to Louis Theroux and his series of shows and tonight we watched the one on that they call the most hated family in America (watch the full episode here). The Westboro Baptist Church. A small cult-esue church that detests gay people and pickets the funerals of soldiers. Honestly, these people were unbelievably off. It was almost creepy. Every time a question was posed by Louis - they avoided the answer or called him dumb. That had not an intelligent answer to say. Not one.
Look..I'm all for free speech. But what i don't get is these obviously controversial organizations who have such idiots acting as their spokespeople or their representation that by association the organization looks dumb. You would think they would at least make an effort to put forward a charismatic and interesting front person to encourage people to listen.
Nope. Not these people. They seem to advocate ruffling people's feathers under the guyse that they like making them mad. They bring their sIt is remall children out to picket (the youngest was 6) who don't understand what is going on and then are surprised when their kids take the brunt of people's wrath (not that I advocate taking it out on children who don't know better - but what kind of parents are these).
The leader of this church was the worst. Fred Phelps. When Louis (the journalist) asked him a question - he refused to answer it under the guise that Louis was just too dumb. Umm..what?
I mean..I am so bothered by these people that I am struggling to express how completely idiotic these people are to me. Their whole theory is that that they - the 70 or so people in this church - are the only people in the entire world who will go to heaven and EVERYONE else will go to hell.
I found it really sad and scary and disheartening to watch. I know people like this exist. And I know for the most part you can't change their minds. But sometimes I almost just don't want to know. I just don't.
I don't understand how people can be so judgemental or hateful or cruel or heartless and convince themselves that it is all in the name of God. In a horrible twisted way it almost makes you want something bad to happen to someone they can understand that bad things happen to all people.
One of the girls said that if she was hit by a car and killed her father would probably laugh and be happy because it means that she is wicked and evil and it was god's plan to kill her.
I mean. COME ON!
*sigh*
Fundamentally, I've never understood this human need to hate. I don't get it. People should believe what they want but why does any belief have to revolve around hating other people. Live your life the way you want it. These people live through hating others. How can that be satisfying. How can that be satisfying for anyone.
I don't get it. I just don't. It makes me feel ill and want to find a place where people like that don't exist. But sometimes I Think that means i would need to go to an island alone.
That would be boring.
I should not watch that stuff before bed. Now I"m all worked up with no one to vent to.
Boo.

